Wordless Wednesday!!

Lack of a Well Defined Purpose?

On my way home from dropping my son off at the train station I saw the most interesting sight.

Actually have seen this before once with a swarm of bees and even fish but rarely birds. In regards to bees they're moving the whole hive and the fish are frenzy feeding but the birds today looked aimless. Unlike migration with a destination, this was a definite circular pattern which almost made me nauseous to watch. Around and around as if they were caught in a looped tornado, self-propelled entities but what triggered this?

 

Was the cohesiveness of the group so important to trigger flocking and seemingly erratic behavior? The short clip above shows exactly what I saw today.  Of course this got me doing some research and to my amazement found a study which was conducted in Italy. Interaction ruling animal collective behavior depends on topological rather than metric distance;  in other words,  they showed this behavior triggered the flocks when they were attacked by a predator be it a falcon or bullet, cohesiveness of the group demonstrated this affect, end result, confuse the enemy.  

A thought of Alfred Hitchcock movie comes to mind, the enemy for those birds was man. And of course “birds of a feather flock together”.  Popularity, reduce risk of predation and basically congregate and enjoy life together, kinda like GBE 2 or NaBloPoMo!  So maybe to some on the outside we look odd but there is a reason for this; truth or fiction, the choice is ours and we flow with it. 

Usually I chose non-fiction. Not sure why, think it was the pretty butterfly on the cover and my very first novel  I read was;  The Collector  as a child. 

Mom said it was fiction but after reading it my 11 year old voice blurted “Mom this could really happen, I could see this happening” and my heart bled for the trapped dying woman.

See many relationships in this state, where control rules and the partner becomes a puppet, aimless and fat. Not that fat is a sign of being trapped but food is such a BIG comfort and insulation is necessary for the abandoned ones.  Maybe obesity is so evident because food is so available.  But it’s never really about the food though, it’s about unmet needs.  The choices we make to medicate the woundedness within and maybe the unconscious reason we join a group.  Deep down we can hide or just maybe sense,  an answer is just a heartbeat or keystroke away.  If we could just quiet the noise around us long enough to listen. 

My son, the one who is brilliant and pure genius, the one who is saving money riding the train every day, my first born and joy of my life, well he met the most amazing business man and author, Leonard Rubino. Kinda by accident, though in life truly believe there is no such thing.  There is a song I came across today describing this event by the artist Adele; Hiding my Heart

This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
It blew me away
It blew me away

It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, you buried them away

In essence, this is just what this man did for my son.  Unemployed and ego destroyed, as he had to find shelter back home with family, something no healthy adult male wishes to admit, on top of this lets add witnessing his beloved grandfather dying, a recipe for depression if there ever was one. 

Well he gets a call and a challenge an in no time solves the puzzle. The call came from a good friend from school who couldn’t figure out a web problem at his job so "lets call Ron" everyone was use to calling good ole Ron. But this time there was another challenge solved and the head of the company now wanted to meet my son in person.  Was it Karma, was it reaping what he sowed; always helping his friends, or was it his dying grandfather’s prayer? Please Lord send someone to help my grandson succeed in this world. Cocktail for success either way you look at it, the owner of this company hired my son immediately. 

Leonard Rubino decided to come out of retirement because he was bored. Successful owner of several corporations and this self made millionaire was led to start another company and this one he chose to have my son partnership with.  He even had a lawyer draw up papers so if anything happened to him, his employees would not be abandoned but sheltered monetarily, yes a sign of a healthy leader. 

It was shortly after my dad’s death my son came home with an autographed copy of his bosses book and dedicated to ME!   

To say I was shocked is an understatement but there it was in black and white his message to me; and yet I felt sad reading this, yes, totally thankful I am employed, have a medical license to Rx and even teach, but don’t feel as if this is my purpose in life. 

It’s then I read the title of this book; “Success and Happiness One Day at a Time” 

Misplaced the book for awhile an I remember my mom wanted to read it.  Always had a hard time saying “no”, if someone asked me for something, I would give it away and especially your mom, Dad would want to see her happy.

Time tic tocked along and I honestly forgot about the book. Mourning has seemingly passed and though dad was such a bright light in our lives, truly never thought he would die, not daddy. He was too much fun, but he died anyways, kinda like dreams.

Saw their lives change when dad couldn’t find a job, often wondered if he just gave up, especially when unavailable funds led him into a home of their affordability; a mobile home. I remember the day the opportunity was offered to them; moms face twitched and my dad’s eyes got real big and his face turned red.  A mobile home was not the retirement community of their dreams and though the reality of “no funds” directed their steps, sadness filled my heart. Why? Because this was my gift, the only thing I could afford and it was nothing but a slap to their egos and I never saw this in them before. 

See, I saved money for my retirement. I was so proud of this but when the hurricanes ripped through this side of Florida; all four of them; Jeannie, Francis, Wilma and Katrina, AND my parents were left homeless, what else could a child have done? Yup, offer them shelter.  This also included shelter for my daughter, grandkids and even for a few weeks, when a sister who was fighting with her husband.  Yes, my home was a retreat of sorts and I didn’t mind, they would do the same for me if I was in a similar situation; so I thought. 

Years have passed, daughters have flown on, sisters have remained partnered, my son on the verge of a financial breakthrough and I face bankruptcy.  My husband is solvent and will stay that way. After all these were not choices he agreed with and it wasn’t money he banked or “bought in” with. This was my family, my choices and he was present to hug me and help us “move on” as good husband’s do.  Heck the sex was still great and who would guess that from 60+ year olds? THIS was never discussed in my family, just a real great surprise for me because as a child I thought sex stopped at say 40. :0)  

So here I am, sitting on the couch making time for writing and praying.

I made a promise to myself, no matter what, discipline myself for at least 30 days and DO THIS.  Ironically I found Leonard's book today. February this year, I asked him if I could quote his book and write about it. Don’t know why I even asked, had a quiet thought and his response was loud and clear; this is what this book is about. An instrument for healing, please implement any way shape or form. 

Today I opened the book to this; Monthly Affirmation: I do only things that make me successful  Ok, I admit it, my nose is making that burning feeling and my eyes are fuzzy, tears get in the way but I can still read the truth.  The timing is perfect, have some time off of work, husband is out of town on business and Praise God there is peace and quiet all around me, except for Pookie, our ring neck parrot, he is talking up a storm!  

Yet I read on; Leonard writes; “Most people spend more time planning a two week vacation than they do in figuring out what they want to do with their life. People who do not succeed in life blame it on just about everything." He goes on to say; “It is better if you don’t worry about money and look for a life purpose that will really make you happy. Then, see if you can make other people happy. Then see if you can turn it into a financial success.”

Never was the type of person who joined a group to "become popular". It just sounds WRONG, yet I always was “part of the popular group”. This was made evident by a recent high school house guest who pointed this out to me. She said “I will never forget the time when ..” and she shared a moment when I encouraged her.  This made me cry, 1. Don’t remember the incident 2. It helped her immensely. 

Gosh we just don’t know the power we sincerely have.Today I rediscovered my purpose.

Innocence in Motion

Flowers are the sweetest thing God ever made

Was sitting in the parking lot of Target, top was down on my Miata as I just recently finished a photo shoot trek through the everglades. Walked several miles and just wasn't up to hitting the isles for food, would leave this up to my son today!  So parked under a shady spot and continue to review my snapshots. In doing so it was now evident their was traffic all around me. Target was a busy place! It was the first week since school opened and observed many parents with their children entering in and out.  It was then a car full of "chatty" girls pulled up. Mom looked 30 ish and a few girls around ten jumped out with purses in hand groomed like petite models. Hair just so and they even had matching earrings! Then I heard it; "Can you believe she wants to be class president?" another responded, "Oh my gawd" and more giggles with muffled conversation entering the store. 'Thank God I am pass this stage" I thought,  remembering how cruel children could be, like parana, sniffing out the bleeding vulnerable or the ones who threaten their position in life, social bonding in the lowest form.

Yup, rather be in the wild woods viewing simplistic temperaments on mother nature's team! So back to reviewing my captures when I hear to the right side of me now; "Hey hey, come this way".  A burly looking man barked towards a child, she looked about nine, chubby and squeezing this bright plastic purple purse, standing shyly by a sun bleached rusty truck. Looking both ways, as I am sure she was taught, she ran to this man's side. Couldn't help but wonder where her mom was and today can still see the expression on her face, elated yet fearful.  It brought immediate tears to my eyes. Part of me wanted to jump out of the car and take her shopping, she saw me so I gave her a big smile and wave, she smiled and put her head down. Immediately found myself praying; "Father protect her innocence, be her Warrior now and forever amen"

It was then could see my son was returning back to the car. Noticed his long black wavy hair flying wildly in the air, hands laden with white plastics and a spring in his walk. Eight months he has been working tirelessly on a project and was on the cusp of a financial break through. Yes he would be a mufti-millionaire but more importantly for the first time he was working for a company who not only believed in him but didn't judge him on his looks or preexisting status. Sure every mom loves their children and see them as genius right?  Truly, mine are.  Now thoughts of his father rush to my heart.  Remembering a story of the many times he was spit upon at the bus stop on Pleasant Street. Ears pulled and bully's had no problem pushing the 10 year old around. He grew up to be 6'4 and became an Olympic Champion  To this day I can recall him saying; "those same people wanted to be my best friend later in life but I never forgot how they treated me".

How we choose to swim out of the Parana pools  in life is an art all in itself. Some of us succeed but the inner child remains crippled which deafens remnant consciousness. This entangles the soul and choices for survival become evident as greed's appetite enlarges. Innocence is discarded and hope loses her voice. The rainbow becomes defiled as double helix echos an earthly tribute. After all,  we were created to reflect heaven on earth, not earthly leaven. So though it may not seem rational to forgive, this action births clarity, as balance gives one power to walk on the waters, yes even the pools of Parana. You've recaptured courage as innocence in motion becomes a daily journey.  'Walk on my child...walk on"  It's then you realize you never really were alone~ just forgot why you were created!

Wordless Wednesday!!

Delicate Balance

“Orb Weaver” or “Banana Spider”

Recently was trekking through the reserve waiting for that special capture to manifest. Expectation is key and having the right tools in hand mandate success.      

Hearing a sudden inhale of air and; “Oh my gawd..”, a squint along the treetops revealed an invisible netting which found; Nepilia clavipes levitated in mid air.

Closer inspection disclosed Poppa above her, (missing one leg, wonder if she ate it prior to the honey bee catch as female spiders are known for sexual cannibalism) honey-bee entanglement with feasting spiderlings. Was able to snap a pic of my friend who gasped as you can see. Also shows the perspective of just how high this spider was in the trees. It truly was quite a sight to behold.

  

My friend was a little squeamish the rest of the journey. She made a few comments suggestive of my “camera etiquette” as being reckless; an open invitation for a sting or worse. In my discernment her comments were sprung from her foundation of fear. Yes we need to respect nature, EVERYTHING, yet never let another's beliefs dominate your actions.

Moments later my batteries lost their charge and had to change them out. On the way back spied a young raccoon foraging on the outskirts of the woods. While filming the event, chuckled to myself thinking; “if you see a raccoon in the daytime they are probably rabid”.  Instead, approached this lil guy and recorded a precious encounter. 

 

There are laws of nature, laws of the universe and if we live life in the sphere of respect and reverence, then this delicate balance we call life will be an adventure full of joy. All we have to do is remember this one thought; “the power of OUR thoughts”, be careful what you digest and be sure to cast off untruth.  Sometimes this means distancing yourself from unhealthy environments…people! 

Read a quote today in Jeremiah; "what you fear may come upon you and you will die there"   

There is enough famine in the world, it’s time to digest truth and let it saturate our being. Embrace the knowing and walk on as joy becomes our shadow. 

Wordless Wednesday

Where Things Wildly Grow

LOXAHATCHEE WILDLIFE PRESERVE

This is where we went exploring today! but we stopped @ "Put-in".

My mom heard the croaking an I explained to her they weren't the local bullfrogs; rather "Gators", so we kept our distance, taking pictures with a zoom lens was satisfactory as we didn't exactly want to be their next meal!

Hope you enjoy the still life pics and snap video takes. Felt it was the best way to share our journey! It was 90 degrees today yet the heat didn't even bother us deep in the Glades.Nature was courteous and let us film intimate moments. It was an honor to witness life in all of its splendor. A privilege capturing God's creatures and life so abundantly. This is where I feel most at home. Brings back memories of my childhood where most of the day was spent outside. My love for photography was sparked and now thoughts of investing in a macro lens/camera again.

A few of you mentioned you could not view the film so i added some pics to include you in the visual intake. Hope you enjoy a jaunt through the Florida "glades".  This particular preserve is located just south of Boynton Beach Blvd off of route 441. Entrance is off a lil dirt road, five dollar envelop gratuity. There is a visiting center, atmosphere even children would enjoy. Little gift shop and adjacent a theater set up for the kiddies to view an "air boat" simulation. You can also rent canoes and paddle through a 2 mile path where there is a floating dock midway and a outhouse secured on top of it! (also a sign which says; "DON'T FEED THE GATORS".  This day we decided to stay on land and enjoy the butterfly's!

                  

   

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